and it’s hard

it’s hard when strangers know you better
than the friends you’ve had for five years

it’s hard when the sun seems to shine
everywhere you fail to step

and it’s sad

it’s sad that you’ve got this huge bed
and no one willing to lie down in it

it’s so very sad that when you’re at your loneliest
everyone finds that it’s the perfect time to disappear

but it’s okay

it’s okay because your friends may not know you
but those strangers do

it’s okay that the sun shines away from you
because there’s nothing wrong with a little shade

and it’s fine

it’s fine that no one else is in your bed
because you happen to like sleeping in the center

it’s fine that people aren’t around sometimes
because it makes the ones that are
shine brighter than the sun

and i could use a little more light in my life

MBS

People whom I can genuinely call friends.

I wish

I wish I had:

A more relaxed wrist that allows me to play single hand of long music passages beautifully.

More flexible fingers, so that I can play finger trills easily, so my scales will sound better, so my music I play will not sound so stiff.

To be better at sight reading so I can play many many more pieces with ease and not be stuck trying to count the notes with every bar.

For better leg coordination so that I will pedal properly as deemed by the score sheet and not as and when I deem fit so that the music I play will sound "clean".

To be better at theory so it will help me to analyse a piece better, be it enharmonic equivalents, counting of notes, rhythmic sense, etc.

To be a better pianist. I want to play all sorts of beautiful songs, and play them as interpreted by the composers, and not by the score sheets.

Sheryl's birthday

Met Sheryl for dinner at Pique Nique after her work for a simple birthday dinner for her. Stayed over at her house after that, slept at 4am in the morning. Breakfast + Lunch at her house the next day, and dinner at grandma's. Great catch up...... :)

Happy birthday, I hope you will be happy forever ever ever. I love you, and thank you for always being there.

First movie of the year

RESIDENT EVIL

WAS DAMN EXCITING OMG

LI BING BING WAS DAMN HOT

SO WAS THE MAIN FEMALE LEAD

BUT I CAN'T REMEMBER HER NAME

BUT THE MOVIE WAS SO EXCITING

YOU SHOULD WATCH IT TOO :)

Oh yes

there are worse things than
being alone
but it often takes decades
to realize this
and most often
when you do
it's too late
and there's nothing worse
than
too late

Rehab day 12

Did lots of weights, squats and lunges. Started with hamstring and quads weight lift x 2 sets. Then was single leg squats on blue foam, wobble board and blue circle air thingy and without anything. Couldn't balance initially but Meiyi was there holding my hips stomach butt as I was doing, letting me hold her hand and promising she'll never let me fall.

I'm so glad because with rehab I've learnt how to trust people when they say they'll never let me fall (like literally).

Moving on I did legs lift both sideways and upwards, with 2 kilos of weight which was hell. And I saw miss toh at rehab too! Such a coincidence. Then dynamic lunges front and back, 2 sets! Crazy shit tiring but I hope I'll have muscle aches tomorrow when I wake up :)

Piano lesson was next, nothing different but was so enjoyable! Nothing better than doing everything you love on the same day! Lots of mistakes in theory, must really buck up. Learnt new pieces oh yay. :)

Met up with Fadhilah and even though it was a short meet up but it was fun while it lasted! I had a really good day today!

bittersweet

maybe it's true bout' what they say 

there are many people whom you encounter in life 

but there's this one you never really got over 

no matter how many other better people you met 

no matter how many people loves you and treats you better 

always in the back of your mind, 

there's always that person that you can't quite completely forget.

Kuishinbo with BFF