9th month post op!

It has been an amazing journey. From walking into the hospital to be wheeled into the surgery waiting area, then wheeled into the operating theatre, witnessing the huge lights and seeing surgeons with their surgical masks. Then waking up in a hospital, being on a drip, etc.

Starting physiotherapy with Karen, then with Meiyi taking over. Thankful for the two beautiful women who changed my life over the short span of (1 year and) 9 months. It was amazing witnessing myself taking my first few steps again I vividly remember Karen pulling my shorts to prevent me from falling, and then I started jumping and Meiyi was there with her hands for me to grab and was a pole for me whenever I needed support, even when doing squats. Soon after I witness myself starting to run, then faster and faster and getting more even with my footsteps. Words can never express my gratitude to them because they've shown me that I can take on the world, even without an ACL.

Feeling empty that I'm officially off physio, but I'm glad I've made it through and would never want to be back again.

Doctor's Review

Review on the knee today with Prof and I was really turned off with him. He was desperately trying to say I'm fat and all his ACL patients are very fit and I was one of the very rare few "unfit" athletes. Prof, had your hospital reviewed me 3 year ago, I'd probably be as fit as all your other ACL patients too you know? Oh the joke's on me? Oops, I forgot to laugh.

Anyway he said my knee's in good shape but I think it really isn't :( Ambulation isn't good, there's still sharp pain when going against gravity, still lopsided when I run, but oh well, Prof has the last say aye?

Rehab day 11

I'm so tired I can die. 5mins of warm up cycling followed by 3mins + 7mins cycling (with some testing of strength of knee in between). 3 sets of 10 x quads + hamstring weights leg lift. I think my strength is improving! Oh yes. Maybe like by 1kg? Then 3 sets of 10 x double leg wall squats with the big ball. Then 3 sets of 10 x static lunges x both legs. And i died and went to rainbow heaven after that.

The pain

The pain of discipline

vs

The pain of disappointment.

I must make it a point to run (almost) everyday during the holidays. Maybe not the weekends and days when I have rehab.. :p I need to try. Need to do. Need to. Still can feel my leg being so so so weak. Weak. I don't want weak legs.

Rehab day 10

Single leg squats, hamstring & quads weights lift 12 x 3 sets, standing broad jump, high knee run x10 sets (nearly died while doing this!), staircase drill, 10 min run.

The(two)Rapists who make my rehab as deep as hell can bring me but amazingly fun!

Pretty meiyi with ugly me!

Karen in the uniform! this is going on my Polaroid wall! Pretty!

Rehab day 9

Zomg I'm actually penning this entry in the mrt on the way home. Rehab just ended, time check: 5.01pm.

I love weeks when I have rehab, at least I have something to look forward to during the week! :) Rehab was so so so tiring today I nearly died.

Started the session with 10 mins of cycling, followed by 10x single leg hop and squats.

Oh shit old age is catching up on me. I actually forgot what I did zzzzz.

Did hamstring and quads weight lift and I sucked at that terribly. I think I had no improvement.. And yaaaa I think I did 4 sets skipping, both forward and backwards. Then 4 sets of side steps also there and back.

Then I did leg lift (up to the hand, shoulder height), both straight and sidewards. Omgomgomg and I was literally dead after that.

Meiyi put me through the phone to Karen after rehab! Yay. She's coming back :)

Note to self: no running if knees hurt/ add in the leg lift (front and side) to daily exercises/ ice every day if possible

Love love rehab.

Rehab day 8

My knee's having a fever.
So apparently it's rather inflamed right now :(

Knee's been hurting so no weight bearing exercises for today!
Did weights for quads and hamstring, and my strength improved!
Didn't take note of the weights though..

Was talking about jobs and was asked by meiyi to do pt.
But there's no way I can do pt unless I go overseas :(
So meiyi suggested for me to do music therapy! :)
But I just checked it out... No school's offering art/music therapy for bachelor's degree.
Sigh..

Balanced on the air space thingy, then switched over to the foam board.
Threw balls while balancing on that, but I sucked at it cos I couldn't multitask.
Went up and down the steps for a while.
Then did 90 deg leg lift!
Then 10 minutes cycle which nearly killed me.

Was fun!
I love physio.
So much laughter and joy.

Rehab day 3

Pretty Karen: The person behind my awesome+fun+tiring rehab sessions.

Knee has 113 degree bend, and Karen said my knee is still slightly screwed...because it still cannot straighten fully. Le sigh. Need more improvements. Need to do my exercises even more. Gonna miss Karen for the next 3 months :(

School starts tomorrow, and I'm not ready for it. Because 1) I still cannot walk very well and SEG is so bloody far from the mrt. 2) We're all split into different classes. 3) I have no friends that's in the same class as me. 4) Tanliting has officially quit school and left me alone, hence I'm #foreveralone.

3 words can sum up about school: I.HATE.SCHOOL.

Bad sorcery

So many times I've broken down in room 8, so many times. So many times I questioned myself whether this injury was worth it, or not. So many times, so many times, Karen was there.

And yet this kind of a bad sorcery is happening. I wish I didn't get attached to people so easily..

It's been a week

I'm still on crutches, and walking on crutches feels like a full body cardio workout, because it's just so tiring.. Can't wait for the day where I can walk without them already.