From London

I am still very disappointed with myself.

I expected more from myself.

My teacher had high expectations of me.

I had even higher expectations of myself.

Yet I still failed to deliver good results.

Confessions

I haven't studied for today's paper. At all. And I also haven't studied for tomorrow's paper too, not even the slightest bit.

School this semester has made me hate school like never before. It's like hate being brought up to another level. I don't even want to see books or anything related because it's just so... (finds word to fit).

I've kept all my lecture notes right from Y1S1 but 2 weeks back right after the RAD paper, I went home and threw all related materials away. This is how much I hate school. And today, right after the SEP paper, I will do the same, and this process will also repeat for Stats and IS.

I just can't wait to get my ass out of school. This is becoming so unbearable. I'm staring at my notes now, trying to start studying but here I am, typing this post out on my phone.

Oh well. All these is going to be over in less than 10 days. I don't want distinctions, I only want to pass.

3 more marks

If I had not screw up that scale.
If I had not missed that note during Vendetta.
I probably would have gotten my 3 marks.

I don't know how or what to describe my feelings now.

Even when my best is still not good enough

I tried really hard.
I did all I could.
But it still isn't up to your expectations.

I just want to be good enough, for once.