I wish

I wish I had:

A more relaxed wrist that allows me to play single hand of long music passages beautifully.

More flexible fingers, so that I can play finger trills easily, so my scales will sound better, so my music I play will not sound so stiff.

To be better at sight reading so I can play many many more pieces with ease and not be stuck trying to count the notes with every bar.

For better leg coordination so that I will pedal properly as deemed by the score sheet and not as and when I deem fit so that the music I play will sound "clean".

To be better at theory so it will help me to analyse a piece better, be it enharmonic equivalents, counting of notes, rhythmic sense, etc.

To be a better pianist. I want to play all sorts of beautiful songs, and play them as interpreted by the composers, and not by the score sheets.

Dreams

Watching the documentary on physiotherapists, and it has really really really inspired me to become one in the future, just like Karen and Meiyi. I see how they change lives, just like how they've changed mine, and I also want to be like them too! I want to make a difference in people's life, in one way or another.

But dreams are still dreams after all, and sometimes dreams are always unreachable and unattainable. No university in Singapore offers physiotherapy as a course... And I've got no money to go overseas to study. Sigh. Back to reality.

Do dreams ever come true?

The weirdest dream

I just woke up and I just had the weirdest dream ever.

I dreamt that someone wanted to kill me because I had powers because she didn't have. (for eg: Harry potter and lord voldermort).

And for some reason I don't know why, I have dinner with her every day and on the dining table, she'd try to use her eye power to kill me.

But however, she wouldn't be able to recognize me if I had a new set of clothes and/or if I'd someone's set of worn clothes on me because I'll have someone else's scent on me thus not being able to track me down.

Then one fine day, everyone swapped clothes with each other but me (wth right?!). And jiamin was the only one without a set of swapped clothes so I begged her to change it with me but she refused. And Jinglin came and she gave me her cardigan.

For some reason I was at grandma's house and I wanted to shit and she refused to let me shit with the door close. I think I wanted to avoid that woman because she was coming over for a dinner. Because of the door thing, she saw me at home and I had to come out to have dinner with her on the same table.

Then she was chasing me, so someone drove a land rover picked me up and Junhao was inside together with Huanhui and two more people. They had a whole bag of clothes for me to choose from.

And that woman who wanted to kill me was chasing me in another car at the back.

And my dream ended.
Abruptly. Oh man. I wish I knew how it ended.

April, please be good

Time passes so fast, it's already April, which means we're done with 1/3 of the year. Should that be a good thing or a bad thing? Honestly, I don't know. But I'm definitely not looking forward to school reopening because school's a dread for me. Sigh.

On a side note, I dreamt that I took part in survivor last night. It was such a blurry dream but I remembered sleeping in a tree house...and I was looking for a toilet but to no avail. I also dreamt that I screwed my piano exam up. And my piano teacher was sitting next to me in the exam hall. She was looking at me and shaking her head at the same thing, albeit giving me the 'disappointed" look. Could this be  an April fools' joke? This cannot happen during my exam... it's one of the hardest things I've worked for throughout my entire life..

Such an adventurous dream.....