Rehab day 6

138 degree bend. Granted permission to run. Played hop skotch with meiyi. Jumped on the trampoline. Did squats and lunges. Muscles aching like mad but am absolutely loving the aches.

Piano lesson at parkway parade today. The journey there and back home wad crazy, at least 4 hours traveling time in total. Super exhausted right now but it's all really worth it.

The piano at parkway was hollow and super loud as compared to the musky ones I use in my classroom in paragon. Screwed up today's lesson slightly but I cannot blame the piano, I just got to get used to the different kind of pianos. Need to work on it. I am really blessed for my piano teacher. Appreciate and really enjoy every single lesson I have with her. Shopping after lesson + htht in the cab on the way back. Am reallyy thankful for her. She's like the only teacher who has never given up on me. I need to work really hard. I don't want to disappoint.

Here

I am here

Holding the piece together.

Tethered,

Like a squeaky merry-go-round

Flying like a hundred nylon kites,

Swooping tips,

Swirling tails.

Me, knotting the past to the pesent.

Over under; under over.

Holding on to remains,

With one hand.

My other palm,

Waving in tomorrow.

School

School has thoroughly drained all my energy out of me.
The first thing I look forward to once I step out of the house is to go back home.
I've never been this tired before.
I need to sleep.
I want to sleep.

Even when my best is still not good enough

I tried really hard.
I did all I could.
But it still isn't up to your expectations.

I just want to be good enough, for once.

Rehab day 5

120 degree bend.
Learnt to jump.
Learnt to squat.

"hold my hand, trust me"
Thank you Meiyi for being there. For just being there.

Next session of rehab: running time!

6 months to liberation. Can't wait!!

Really want to play competitive Netball after recovery. But I have no team to play for and I don't want history to repeat itself all over again.. Oh well that's 6 months later..

Please

Understand me.

When you've loved someone with all that you have, and that someone took everything away and left you with nothing, it's hard to love someone else with everything you have because all you're left with is nothing.

You don't understand.

That someone left. And took everything and my soul away. I'll never be able to look at love the same way again. I'm trying. With nothing.

Awesome food + company

Food for thought with Sheryl after school on Wednesday.

 Awesome food and quality time spent with her. Need more times like this :)