OKAY.

But who can remember pain once it's over?

All that remains of it is a shadow.

Not in the mind even, in the flesh.

Pain marks you, but too deep to see.

Out of sight, out of mind.

I'm employed!

Got employed with YMCA as casual staff, pay's really quite pathetic though. But it's okay, I need the experience so I can do what I want to do in the future! Starting work the week after, I don't know how I should feel, happy maybe? I don't know though. But despite the pathetic pay, the best thing about this job that it really is casual - which means I can work as and when I am free, no strings attached! Love this kind of freedom!

JOBHUNT

Been sending out countless numbers of resumes to many different companies until I CANNOT EVEN KEEP TRACK. Shortlisted for an interview yesterday and when the person called me, I was like,

 "Who are you? Why are you calling me Come again, which company are you from? Oh? So I did apply for a job with your company. I'm so sorry I really forgot about it, haha"

 Okay that was laoookuiiii max.

BUT they wanted me to go down today, at 5.30 for the interview but I have a damn exam. SHIT YOU STATS. Ruined me my chance of getting a job. I really really really need a job. I'm so broke I can't even

I need to save money, I want to study something I like. I need to save money for my education. Overseas maybe? Or private education. I don't know, haven't given that special thought. Psychology? Music? Physiotherapy? I want to study them all.

I need the money. I REALLY REALLY REALLY HOPE SOMEONE EMPLOYS ME :(

Dreams

Watching the documentary on physiotherapists, and it has really really really inspired me to become one in the future, just like Karen and Meiyi. I see how they change lives, just like how they've changed mine, and I also want to be like them too! I want to make a difference in people's life, in one way or another.

But dreams are still dreams after all, and sometimes dreams are always unreachable and unattainable. No university in Singapore offers physiotherapy as a course... And I've got no money to go overseas to study. Sigh. Back to reality.

Do dreams ever come true?

Confessions

I haven't studied for today's paper. At all. And I also haven't studied for tomorrow's paper too, not even the slightest bit.

School this semester has made me hate school like never before. It's like hate being brought up to another level. I don't even want to see books or anything related because it's just so... (finds word to fit).

I've kept all my lecture notes right from Y1S1 but 2 weeks back right after the RAD paper, I went home and threw all related materials away. This is how much I hate school. And today, right after the SEP paper, I will do the same, and this process will also repeat for Stats and IS.

I just can't wait to get my ass out of school. This is becoming so unbearable. I'm staring at my notes now, trying to start studying but here I am, typing this post out on my phone.

Oh well. All these is going to be over in less than 10 days. I don't want distinctions, I only want to pass.

Doctor's Review

Review on the knee today with Prof and I was really turned off with him. He was desperately trying to say I'm fat and all his ACL patients are very fit and I was one of the very rare few "unfit" athletes. Prof, had your hospital reviewed me 3 year ago, I'd probably be as fit as all your other ACL patients too you know? Oh the joke's on me? Oops, I forgot to laugh.

Anyway he said my knee's in good shape but I think it really isn't :( Ambulation isn't good, there's still sharp pain when going against gravity, still lopsided when I run, but oh well, Prof has the last say aye?

Hello gorgeous

You're finally mine!