Monday blues

My network technology lab tutor indirectly called me hopeless today. Usually I'll just shriek and laugh it off, but I feel exceptionally demoralized today. I know I'm better than this in filtering comments but I don't know why I'm letting this rule my head tonight. I mean, who wants to be bad in something. I also want to be good at your module. Why am I the lousy student? Why can't you be the useless tutor? Why is it always my fault? I hate school. I hate NYP.

Rehab day 14

Quads 90%
Hamstring 50%

Hate it when the mind says "go", but the knee says "no".....

RED

Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street
Faster than the wind
Passionate as sin, ended so suddenly
Loving him is like trying to change your mind
Once you’re already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn
So bright just before they lose it all

Losing him was blue like I’d never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met
But loving him was red
Loving him was red

Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song
Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there’s no right answer
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong


You never knew I did, too, M.

Ling's 18th

Goodbye

My new timetable is out, and it sucks because I cannot work because I end school pretty late almost everyday and I'm back to a 5 day work week. I am already missing my kids so badly. Hopefully the next time I'm able to see them is in December? If I decide to renew my contract, that is.

Chesley & Ler En, please continue to stay this charming! I hope the both of you continue to work hard and charm a lot of girls when the both of you grow older. :)

I hope Brayan grows up and be less emotionally attached to the teachers, learn how to do his work by himself even though he's really very very smart.

Ying Xuan, I hope your (new) teacher will remember that you like to bathe in cold water.

Thank you Xavier Quek and Bryan Tan for being such helpful upper Ps and scolding your peers when you know I get really angry.

Jing En, I really wish you've got your money sense right because I'm sorry I left before making you fully understand the chapter of money which you really don't understand. I will miss tying plaits for you during break time.

I hope Ammar will be really happy, as his nickname goes: "mr happy". Please learn help yourself more because no one can do that for you. Learn to know the difference between good and bad okay?

Thank you Yu Jia for your paper hearts on my second day of work. You've been such a nice girl, always taking care of your classmates when they need help, teaching them work after I've taught you so. You've been such a joy :)

Victoria! Please learn to control your voice, I hope your (new) teacher or the teachers won't have shout at you as many times as I do, and sit properly during class, don't whine so much because that's not going to make you look pretty.

Please don't mumble Shi Xuan, because most of the time I only hear you mumble and you talk really fast! Haha.

Ji Ning, please stop crying over the simplest things, your sister is coming in next year! I sincerely hope you'll toughen up and be a brave girl!

Thank you Joella for all the little drawings and storybooks you've gave me. Please do not talk so much and annoy the shit out of your teachers okay?

Small and medium Rachel(s), together with Hui Wen, Geok Theng and Ashley, I will miss hearing your gossips about Pui Yi during shower, and taking care of your water babies.

And to those that I've not mentioned, teacher apryl still loves you. :) thank you for this wonderful work experience.

From London

I am still very disappointed with myself.

I expected more from myself.

My teacher had high expectations of me.

I had even higher expectations of myself.

Yet I still failed to deliver good results.

Rehab day 13

Hamstring and quads weights leg lift, single leg squats, single leg bridging, dynamic lunges. Butt aching like hell now but I am loving the aches!