OFF PHYSIO

Officially off physiotherapy although I still think I'm not ready yet despite my strength, jumps, etc were "good enough" for my return to Netball.

Maybe I should try to stop being where I was, last time, being a competitive athlete. Maybe I should just stop trying to achieve where I was when I fell down.

Then I look back and there, I see myself during training, able to complete 2.4km within 12 mins, suicide run in 25 seconds (being one of the faster ones), running and sprinting without having to bother whether my knee can take it, "flying" on court, doing nice interceptions, etc. There're too many countless things.

But the thing is, I can't do any of those right now.

I take 20 mins to complete 2.4km. I can't sprint. I feel slower than a snail despite trying my very best. Sometimes I wonder if this ACL recon was even worth it. I've lost all my strength on court.

Maybe I should stop trying.
Maybe I'm just not cut out for this.

I miss netball.
I miss competitive netball.