Okay but not fine at all

You know, as much as I tell myself that I've moved on from Netball and the injury, there are some times (like this) when I actually sit down, and fall into self pity on how I got injured and didn't play zonals.

I mean, I've -finally- got over everything, yes. But there're times like this when I just recall everything and I just miss playing Netball. I do not want to actually play it now competitively, but I wish I was there playing when others were. It has become this emptiness that resides in me and it will never be filled in because all there is now, are unfulfilled regrets.

I'm okay, really.