Motivation

Exams are finally over and the past week has been one of the most stressful weeks I'd for a while. It wasn't much of the "exams are coming" kind of stress, but rather they're the kind of "I seriously don't know anything because I haven't been paying much attention in class" kind of stress and wanting to learn everything I've learnt for the past 8 weeks in just a week.

I know it's my fault for being that way, although I'd admit that I was really daydreaming for most of the math lectures. But I really paid attention for programming which I really understood nothing, and Mr Chai isn't much of a help though. But this is tertiary education and I can't do much about teachers not wanting to teach and having PMS all of a sudden for some godforsaken reason.

And after 1 week of intense mugging, I finally got my math somewhere up, with the help of Felicia who taught me a lot of math!!! She's a freaking genius I swear. And programming paper was....(finds word to insert) no comments. I really really hope to pass.

I have 6 more days before the new term starts, which equates more stress because it's when all the projects are due and I have many on hand which are undone (partly because they're group work and we're all busy during the holidays...excuses yes I know). And I'm someone who can't handle stress well.

I don't know why, I have more motivation in getting a really difficult piece on the piano rather than studying......I really wanna enjoy studying like how I really enjoy playing the piano. Sigh.

Okay abrupt ending my brain isn't function really well tonight.