I read my past entries and I've realized my command of the English language was so much better 2 years back. I wondered what exactly happened to it. Maybe once it's lost, it's forever gone. I really hope not because I don't want my command of the language to stay this bad forever. Nyp, just what have you done to me? Robbed me of my (better) English standard (not that it's that good, but still, it was better) and changed me into a cheena pok.
I really wished I enjoy school. I look at other people enjoying their school life, and only me, hating on school so much every day that I have to drag my feet to school. Why is this only happening to me? I used to enjoy school so much that I wish holidays never ever existed.
I hate myself.
I feel like a dissonant chord now.
It's correct chord but audiences will think it's out of tune.
Hating life right now.
I wish my mom really knew how much I hate school. I really wish she'd try. But she wouldn't. She's not understanding that I'm struggling to pass my modules, she thinks I'm having a easy time because I'm still coping and doing reasonably well for my modules. Do I really have to fail my modules before she'll actually start believing me?
Mommy are you reading this? I hope you are. Words never get conveyed to you because I don't bother explaining myself further because you never ever believe a word I say.
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